how far ive gone off track
how much i sleep
and just watch
when was the time when i walked in the sun
with my head high and my body strong
when did i want strength instead
of falling to pieces on the floor
when did i stop the addiction
I once looked at my heroes
and saw i was stronger then them

i stopped believing i would be dead at 27
seems now i don't believe i will die at all
and this is already eternity
with no reason or fear that
any of these thing will ever stop
that i have already died
and there is no life

i wish i could cry right now
but as the rush of pain came
it was sealed and the feeling
has landed in my chest
does the heart love too strongly
when the mind knows better
or does the mind grow too anger
and the heart knows better

whatever the truth is
I am no longer on the path
that was righteous
I am no longer in his image
I am no longer the light

the light is inside of me
and I have forsaken it

all that count on me
why has this game been played on me?
Do I not have the strength to know better
what design has me in this state
I only wished to reach out
i am mislead and distracted
by the awful smells and sights
of her past
I am left alone missing her